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    My Story

     

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    How did I come to see the value of simply feeling good in my daily life?

     

    Like so many people, I have suffered from habitual thinking with flavors of worry, insecurity, and guilt. I can see now that habitual thoughts are likely part of our human consciousness – they are thoughts that do not belong to any one person, and no one is responsible for their existence. These thoughts are floating around making life feel hard and heavy when we innocently grasp onto them and give them lots of attention.

     

    When I was in college, I was diagnosed with clinical depression, which became an entrenched part of my identity. Over time, I also became preoccupied with suicidal ideations, which could be acute and extremely painful at times. I also experienced joy in my life, which sometimes worked against me as I continued to judge myself so harshly. What was wrong with me? Why did I feel so badly when there was so much to be grateful for and feel good about in my life? 

    In October 2022, I was going through a troubling time filled with worry and thoughts of past mistakes and self-blame. As so many people do, I went to the internet for help and googled something in desperation. I cannot remember what I googled, but I stumbled upon Dr. Amy Johnson’s website for The Little School of Big Change.

     

    I decided to email Amy with a question. I was pretty cynical and thought to myself, “Amy seems like a famous person who has a beautiful website full of all kinds of resources. There’s no way that she will ever write back.” For some reason that I cannot explain, I gave it a try anyway.

     

    Much to my surprise, Amy wrote back! She said, “It’s me, and I am reading your email!” That one sentence filled my soul with hope. I burst into tears and cried for a long time. I hadn’t even read her response, but it helped so much to know that someone actually cared and responded to me. Amy went on to tell me that there was a way for me to see my stories filled with guilt, shame, and regret in a different way.

     

    I didn’t have to force myself to use positive thinking or to make sense of past events, but I could see things differently. I could even see my habitual motherly worries in a completely different way. It began to occur to me that my life did not need to feel so hard and that I didn't need to work hard to experience hopeful, expansive feelings. It was a simple as looking in a different direction!

     

    Fast forward to June 2023, and I became a Certified Change Coach with Dr. Amy Johnson. I can see that there is hope for all of us and that we can find ease and peace in our lives with much less worry, anxiety, and pressure. Please reach out to me when it feels right and comfortable to you. I am here. I will respond and hopefully help you to embark on a freer, easier path.

    We all know that music can soothe our souls and help us to find a freer, more expansive place. I would love for you to check out Jack’s YouTube channel. Jack is a student at the Cleveland Institute of Music majoring in piano performance. Enjoy and subscribe!

     

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